Noctuary - Published!

Monday, June 12, 2017

I finally did a thing! Ha, ha! I'm not sure if I have mentioned it here on the Blog, but I have been writing a couple books now for what seems like forever. This little collection was put together in a matter of days because I already had the poems in hand and I thought, why not? Why not publish my insides for all to see? Anyway, yes this a small little collection of some poems and diary entries spanning over a decade. It's very difficult for me to share any of my work for many reasons, one of them being vulnerability. I wrote some of these in my darkest times, when I felt alone and trapped in my own mind. Never in my wildest dreams would I ever think they would be available on Amazon and Kindle to Purchase [insert uncontrollable introvert laughter here] but I did it and I'm super proud of myself. The kindle version has had a lot of downloads since I published it, which was pretty surprising for me. 

As far as the name of the book, I thought Noctuary was appropriate since I do all my writing at night. The Websters definition of Noctuary is: a journal of nocturnal incidents or a journal of what happens in the night. I know other authors have used this word relating to horror fiction, but if I'm being completely honest with myself, these poems were written at night when I was most vulnerable, some even after I had nightmares/night terrors, some with tears streaming down my face. Writing helps ease my anxiety and panic attacks, it always has. These are a sum of my thoughts during those periods when I needed someone to just listen.

My other work is well on it's way too. I'm also planning on publishing another book of poetry that will also have art included. This one will probably have about 200 poems, but that's not written in stone yet, no pun intended...well maybe slightly intended. The manuscript for my sci-fi book is still underway...and I totally feel like I'm going to be pulling a Tolkien on this one. I do want to take my time and make sure it's perfect, hopefully without plot holes and such. I will also be submitting this professionally through to publishers. Which I know will be an interesting journey! I'm already prepared for rejections, but I refuse to give up on my dreams.

Well if you're curious, or need a door stop, here are the links for Amazon and Kindle:

I hope everyone has enjoyed the warmer weather that we have had in the States! I know we have! I can't wait to go swimming, and kayaking, and paddle boarding!


My Disney Side

Thursday, May 4, 2017

I'm not sure if I have ever mentioned it here, but I am a HUGE  Disney fan! In fact the very first movie that I saw in a movie theater (that I can remember!) was The Little Mermaid. I fell in love and never looked back. I had to watch everything Disney! I was relentless. When I was little you could always find me impatiently waiting to watch the Mickey Mouse Club on TV. Even the older black and white version! 

Here we have a tribute to my 9th birthday. It was 1990. I'm sporting my stylish Minnie Mouse shirt.

Oh my! Was I a dorky kid or what?! Who gives themselves bunny ears?? I should try to re-create this picture...but anyways. As I grew, my love for all things Disney grew. Anytime a Disney movie came out in theaters I had to go. Once I was old enough to go to Disneyland with just my friends, you bet I had a year pass with the least amount of black-out days! 

Here we have myself  and my best friend Jamie. It's 1995 and Toon Town was brand new!

Look how cute 'gansta' Eeka is! HA! Funny thing though, I did end up in Disney jail once, but we can talk about that another time! Moving on....

As you can imagine I love all things Disney and here is my list of my top 10 ALL TIME favorite Disney movies:

10. Cinderella
9. Lilo & Stitch
8. Mulan
7. Beauty & The Beast
6. Cinderella
5. Enchanted
4. Frozen
3. The Little Mermaid
2. Moana
1. Tangled

That list is always changing I feel. And don't get me wrong I pretty much love them all! I know Star Wars is now apart of Disney now, but it will always be a separate category to me. Though it is very exciting to have two of my favorite fandoms merge. 

My very first favorite Disney Princess was Ariel. We have a lot in common, except I'm not a mermaid, or a princess, or married to a prince...ha ha! Okay so maybe just the part about being raised by her dad and having a yearning to be in a world that is different from the one I was in. I never felt like I fit in. I still don't! I loved that she wasn't afraid to do what she needed to do to be with the one she was in love with, though as an adult when I look at it now, I'm like wow that's a weird story! I also read the original Hans Christian Andersen tale, and that's even worse!

Fast forward to today and Tangled has become my favorite! Moana is right behind. Rapunzel and I have so much in common! Except I wasn't kidnapped as a child, and I'm not a Princess, nor did I grow up in a tower! I did have a lizard as a pet, befriended a bunch of rough-ians, and been on more adventures than I can count! Unfortunately my hair does not have magical properties, though It's been many magical colors! 

Here are some of my favorite Disney movie moments:

Do you love Disney? I would love to hear about it!


Outfit Diary - Stormtrooper Skirt

Saturday, April 22, 2017

 Outfit Details: 
Cardigan - Thrifted
Tank top - Target
Skirt - ME! (Fabric is from Jo-Ann fabrics)
Necklace - Disney
R2D2 Chap stick - A.C. Moore 

Hola! Super nerdy outfit post here and wow I took a little bit of a break there! If I'm being completely honest I needed it! I have this really bad habit of piling a lot on my plate. I've also been working on my anxiety and Panic Disorder. In fact the other day I ran all of our errands alone, which is a really big deal for me, though I did end up with a bad anxiety attack after. Aside from that I've noticed that keeping myself busy and working with my hands helps a lot! I've been painting, writing, and sewing! The skirt you see here took me about 3 hours to make (it was my first skirt) and was really easy to make! If you are interested in trying it out yourself here are the links to the Youtube videos I used for reference:

 Skirts/dresses pockets

Simple Skirt

Add pockets to anything

It feels so satisfying making my own clothes, and all the money I'm saving in the process. Plus I feel like I have a strange shape and this way I'm able to have the perfect fit with comfort too.

I have also been on this kick where I feel that all clothing should have pockets, and when I made this skirt pockets were the first thing that came to mind. The pockets ended up being my favorite part! Unfortunately when I made the skirt I used my hand for measuring when I should have used my IPhone! I have the IPhone 7 plus and it doesn't fit. The next skirt I make I will make sure it fits.

Another fun thing I'm wearing is my new badge for the 501st Legion. I got it for when I'm not in my Jawa robes and when I'm wrangling. I think it's cool that it also has my PR Officer title. I help out with The New England Garrison's social media, which is a lot of fun!

And did you notice my hair? Can I say that gray hair is the hardest color I have ever tried to achieve? Because it is! My poor hairdresser had the hardest time trying to lighten it and I just recently re-toned it. Overall I love though! Have you ever had a hard time achieving a specific color?

I had a lot of fun taking pictures for this, as you can probably tell. My awesome fiance Mary was taking all the pics and my daughter was there too making me laugh. I love them so much.

Anyway, Thanks for stopping by!